Being a new mum with Psoriatic Arthritis
Right now you are questioning yourself so much. You question how you will cope. You question how you could ever be a good mum when your world is consumed by pain and exhaustion.
But let me tell you that you will cope and you will be exactly the mum that your inquisitive and funny boy needs.
Nobody warned you about mother’s guilt and you will battle with it a lot over the next couple of years. It will creep in on the days where all you can manage is to meet your son’s basic needs. It will haunt you on the days where you know you should be attending that baby group or that play date but you haven’t slept and your body is screaming in pain. But you just have to look at your son and remind yourself that he is happy, healthy and perfect in every way. You are enough and you have learnt to adapt.
There are days when you just can’t, there’s a lot of CBeebies and cuddles on the sofa. But there are are so many other days when you do. Your son isn’t missing out on anything and he is full of life.
You will still struggle. The pain is still there, you can’t ignore it but you can manage it. You can manage it by not pushing too hard or expecting too much. You can manage it by knowing the outcome is hearing your little boy giggle or watching him run and explore the world.
You get a diagnosis of Psoriatic Arthritis after your son is born and with it comes some answers and better care than before.
You have support from people who love you and you don’t do it alone.
Your boy is growing so big and he is full of so much wonder, he wants to know how and why and you are his teacher. To him you are everything and to you he is life.
So mama, please don’t question yourself anymore.
You are enough, you can do it and you have got this.