If only you knew right now how good a mum you are
I wish I was there right now to tell you that it will be OK and to reassure you; to let you know that, yes this is going to be tough, but so are you and you can do it. You DO do it. AND your little man, he is fine.
I’m sorry I ever doubted you.
If only you knew right now how good a mum you are. I know you do deep down, but it’s been hard for you to see sometimes in this haze. You will be out of this soon, it won’t be easy, but you are so bloody brave and I am so proud of you. Walking away is the best thing you do, I promise. I know it’s hard and it’s frightening, it’s unknown and you’re vulnerable, but you’re going to be OK and some of people around you right now have your back more than you realise. Most importantly, whatever happens, he is fine.
I wish I could tell you that’s it’s OK; OK to cry, OK to worry, OK to struggle and OK to ask for a hand if you need it. You are so loved and no matter how low you feel, you always keep him safe, and guess what, he is fine.
You’re going to learn so much, so much about you, about being a mum, about families and even though you don’t feel it right now and it niggles away in the back of your head, one day you’re going to see that no family around you, or anywhere, is perfect. Yours is just wonderful for you two and he is fine.
I won’t lie to you, there are going to be times where you think you can’t do it, there are more battles ahead, big ones, but guess what, you get through them like you always have and every single time you grow and grow. You’re pretty bad ass these days and the little guy, he is fine.
I know you know you’re strong and I know sometimes you don’t want to be, or rather, you just wish you didn’t need to be, but remember who’s watching. You have protected him fiercely like the lioness you are and you have given him everything he could ever need and he is so so happy. He loves you so much and in his eyes you are the best Mummy the world could have ever made and, guess what, he is fine. More than fine, he is wonderful, he is strong, he is loved and he is happy. I promise.