Perspective...it’s all in the mind!
You grew up sharing various frustrations with mum (Mother P) in relation to school, friends and daily challenges. For the most part her response would be, 'Ange, its all in the mind, its all in the mind.' This used to frustrate you no end, mainly because you didn't know what the heck she was talking about...lol. She was and in some ways still is, an Old Skool Caribbean Yoda....
But as you grew older and embarked on a journey to a new chapter that God willing you'll get to (sssshhhh turning 40 in November) you've spent a lot of time reflecting on mainly the lows in your life over last 5/6 years. Has it been all bad? Of course not, but, of all the things that caused you deep pain and hurt, you're now asking the question, 'Angela, what did you LEARN from that?' The answer? You're a lot stronger than you thought and by God's grace, you're still in your right mind.
You see, you've come to believe that every situation in life gives you the opportunity to create a 'meaning' or a 'story' and the story you choose will dictate your every thought, mood and action thereafter. For example when you were going through the divorce and experiencing the multitude of responses, opinions and the like from friends and family, you chose to believe that life was over, you thought you were a 'black sheep' and that all that is left for you to do is raise your son and wait to die. You literally felt like life ended at 35.
But one day, you will have had enough and you decide to change the way you see things, you are not the first to go through divorce and definitely not the last. Day after day, moment after moment you continuously speak and confess life over yourself. You will look at your situation and give God thanks for the fact that although you are the child of divorced parents who had just gone through a divorce, you have been blessed with a son who was not damaged despite various people telling you he would be.
A change of thought and perspective meant that you will maintain a genuine friendship with your ex-husband that is deeper than, 'being amicable for the sake of the kids.' A change of thought, attitude and perspective meant that your character had to build some muscle for the sake of a 4 year old boy who was watching your every move, taking everything in to his 'little computer' (aka brain - according to Mother P).
So as you now journey towards 'Fabulous 40', you have decided to piece together every chapter of your life - good and bad with gold... you've decided to pursue the things you loved in your late teens and twenties, to make mistakes, to try again and to allow your metamorphosis to take its full course.... because perspective really is everything and it really is, all in the mind...