Pregnancy: The hell you’re living right now, it doesn’t last forever.
It's me. You. That word probably feels alien right now. You probably hate it. But soon, it will be your favourite sound in the world. ‘Mama’.
The hell you’re living right now, it doesn’t last forever. Even though you can't remember life before this started and you can’t picture life ever again beyond this, it will pass. You will eat again, you will drink again, you will smile and laugh and feel happy again.
There’s a little boy inside you, but you know that. What you don’t know is how PERFECT he is. His name will be Otis, you’ll call him Oatcake and he will change your life. He’s got blonde hair, the cheekiest laugh and the gentlest nature. He loves music, like his daddy and loves dancing like you. He will melt your heart every day. He thinks you are INCREDIBLE. And he’s right.
It’s impossible to imagine feeling that one day you would be ready to die for someone who, right now, is putting you the closest to dying that you’ve ever been. But one day soon you’ll feel just that. That baby, who you hate right now, will be your entire world.
So keep going Mama. One day, one hour, one minute at a time. You’re one step closer to becoming that Mama.
Demand treatment, accept support, talk, openly and honestly, there are people who can help. (Oh and that nurse that just offered you ginger tea, she’s an idiot, you’re allowed to hate her.)
You’re doing brilliantly Mama. You’re almost there. It’s ok.
Love, Me. X