Two children under 3 is hard
In the space of 3 years your life has done a 360. You were a carefree twenty something living for the next sun holiday and planning your calender around Friday night drinks. Saturdays consisted of spending 3 hours in the nail shop getting pruned for the week ahead, a gym class and more socialising. Now they consist of 4 loads of washing, an attempt at food shopping and maybe a trip to softplay. Your nails look like something that should belong to a construction worker, and the thought of putting on make up has become such a chore. Your energy levels are on the floor, and any energy you do have is spent making them happy.
Two children under 3 is hard. It wasn’t the plan, but now that it is your reality you cant imagine life any other way. They are your boys, you love them so much it physically hurts, yet it is so hard you often wonder if you can do this. This new life is so different the one you used to have, sometimes you feel like a different person. Who knew that just getting out of the house could be so hard? Or that a toddler could make you cry just by refusing to put on shoes?
Breathe mama. Because whilst you are worrying that you are not cut out for this, that surely you are doing something wrong for it to be this hard, you are missing the most important part. Open your eyes and see how them boys look at you. How they turn to you for comfort when they are upset. How they hold out their arms for you. They love you more than anyone or anything. You ARE doing this right. I know that having two little people rely on you for everything is a lot, it's scary and you want to get this right. You love them so much you want their life to be perfect, you want to be perfect for them. But they will always think you are perfect, even on days when you do not. They will always go to sleep happy and loved, because you will never have it any other way.And that is what makes you a good mum.
Your life may have changed, you may not be the person you were 3 years ago. But look at you now. You are strong, you are a working mum who is providing for her family whilst also being a nurse, a teacher, an actress, a chauffeur, an accountant and whatever else those little ones need you to be. You are so much more than the person you were before. They will not be babies forever, and when they are grown you can go back to spending your Saturday getting a pedicure. For now, enjoy the chaos, the unpredictability, the laughter and most importantly, enjoy the love.