You will learn to manage all his many food allergies
Keep going. Persevere with the doctors appointments. Ask more questions, don’t let them dismiss you as an ‘over-anxious first-time mum’. You’re not overreacting. His puffy eyes, his swollen face, his weeping eczema, his explosive nappies. These are NOT normal ‘adjusting to the world’ newborn symptoms.
Know that you’re doing everything you can to keep him happy and comfortable, know that his eczema, his restlessness and ultimately his anaphylaxis isn’t your fault, it’s nobody’s fault, you can’t continue to blame yourself. Find peace and accept this.
You will learn to manage all his many food allergies, it will all get easier once they are all identified and you work out when to apply and administer all of the lotions and potions and medication that you have been prescribed for him.
His Jext Pens will become as part of you as your left leg, they will become a part of the family, never left behind. They will come on every trip, every visit, every time you leave the house. Let them fill you with confidence and reassurance.
You will learn to trust family and to leave him in their care, they want to help. Let them help. Yes you will panic and cry and worry but looking after yourself is important too and having time apart sometimes is needed.
Your start to motherhood hasn’t been easy, but this journey will shape the person you will become and you will become a better person from it. I hope it gives you peace of mind to know that you were right all along and never to take maternal instinct for granted.
Keep going Mama, there is a light at the end of the tunnel.