You'll find your way
So it’s happened, all you’ve ever wanted. With the person you want forever.
Earlier than expected? Maybe.
You have no idea what’s coming.
You didn’t think it would be so hard.
The ups. The downs.
Losing people and gaining others.
Things don’t always go to plan, but you’’ll learn that’s ok.
The guilt will stay with you forever and the pain in your heart of not having the birth everyone tells you about. Love at first sight? That didn’t happen. We struggled. We really struggled. We were both poorly and mama wasn’t ok. It wasn’t your fault but mama can’t see that right now. But daddy is here for us.
It will take a while to heal, you’ll get there. Hang in there mama.
You’ll never truly accept and certainly never forgot how things began but you’ll be ok. I promise.
All you’ve ever wanted may not come packaged as you expected. It will just be mama and son. It will be hard and it will be lonely.
But most of all so so bloody amazing, rewarding and special.
Would you change it? Of course you wouldn’t, you couldn’t even comprehend life any different.
Our bond may have developed slower than others at first, but now you are my best friend, my life, my son.
We made it through (and we’re still fighting on. Together).
Are you doing everything how you imagined? No. That’s ok because you’re strong and you’ll find YOUR way.
You’ve got this.